The Apple Trees Do Not Produce This Year
Serrated sword scrapes my young womb,
while two apple trees stand to my right,
just beyond the windowsill. Hollow and aching,
they feel like brown rice spilling out of my tilted hand.
I ask them how to carry,
but they tell me about losing instead.
They have both held the progeny of predators before.
Feeling like slivers of glass piercing and never enough air,
the seeds in my belly begin consuming me.
How deeply trauma tears into the fabric of a child.
In preparation for what comes next,
the two translate the sharpness of after as it relates to before,
creating a crevasse so profound
that it breaks me in two.